A Tough Day
Friends. Tuesday was a tough day. I’ve been so busy the last few days/weeks that I haven’t had much of a chance to stop and rest and I think that definitely impacted me. I’ve had the yard sale to prep for and then decide what I want to do with all the leftover items. I’m having another sale this weekend and then I am done. It’s taking up a lot of room in my garage and I feel really good about the amount of items that we’ve been able to offload. I’m even considering a bag sale on Saturday.
But. With all of this plus getting ready to launch the mobile antique business, plus working, plus life, I think I have finally hit my wall. I was out delivering yesterday and a couple of things coincided together (a sketchy house to deliver to plus the apple car play decided to stop working in the rental van) led to me getting very frustrated and start to overthink everything. Plus, people please put house numbers on your houses! Or give instructions in the delivery apps. I can’t tell you how many times people have weird things happening at their houses and we’re expected to figure it out. Case in point, Tuesday, I went to deliver right after the sketchy house and the house I was delivering to didn’t have a mailbox at the road, the driveway was a quarter mile long, and then no house number on the house. The front steps were rotted and falling apart. No notes in the app. Just figure it out. So I did.
But. I was beyond frustrated at this point and finished my deliveries (the rest were fine. There’s always a couple every day that are confusing or sketchy. Not sketchy in a bad way, but sketchy in ‘am I at the right house way. All we can do is go on the information we have-GPS and the Google earth to see if houses match up). For the life of me, I can’t figure out what these people are thinking. I keep thinking they think ‘well, I know where I live, why don’t you? You have GPS why do you need any information about my house?” By the time I was done with that last delivery (side door please. Side door was around the block behind a fence), I was really done and ready to go home. I couldn’t tell if I wasn’t feeling well but I just was done. I had hit my wall. But I still needed to mow. So I did.
I got out the mower and just mindlessly drove circles around my yard. But I was crying while doing it. Which is weird. I’m a crier but not on the mower. I love mowing but I think at this point it’s one more thing to fit into my already full schedule. But I got most of it done. At least what I needed to get done. My weed-eater broke the last time I used it (the part that holds the string on broke off. Need to figure out if I can purchase that separately). So no weed-eating this time. That’s fine. Maybe I’ll hire a nephew to do the yard work for me for the rest of the season. One thing off my plate.
But back to a tough day. I was all kinds of in my feels, as they say. I did the mowing and cleaned up the kitchen and then went to bed. I wrote out a blog post and published that after mowing. My memory is a little hazy from being sick, but I do remember sending out some proposals, writing a post, editing photos, and then going straight to bed.
The morning started off fine. Tuesdays have been slow for deliveries so I took the time to fold and put away laundry, clean up some items, etc. Water the plants. Then waited for my first order. I even took a break in between orders to sit in a park and send emails, write that aforementioned post, and just generally enjoy the day. But as the day wore on, the worse I felt and the worse things got (at least in my head). I cried myself to sleep and then woke at 5AM crying. Then by 8AM I woke again and realized that I was sick. AH! That explains a lot. I feel addle brained but I think I’m going to make it. I am taking the day to recuperate. I will get some things done, but no heavy lifting.
I think this will be Tuesday and Wednesday’s post combined. I plan on running out to put up some yard sale signs, start inventorying my items for the mobile Antiques, and then trying to get some of the yard sale set up. The last part might not happen today. I have a very busy Thursday but can always pull things out when I get home. Overall, knowing that I am not feeling 100%, I do feel better. I had a great therapy session yesterday as well. I’ve been back in therapy weekly now for a few months and it is REALLY helping me. We talk about all kinds of things and I see how much growth I have had, especially recently. I am really enjoying therapy and can’t wait to continue to grow.
I think we’ll stop here. I need to go lay back down and rest for a bit. Maybe that list of chores won’t get done today after all. Oh. I also wanted to make mention of the connections I have been making that are leading to conversations and potential collaborations, applying for grants and other opportunities. If you’d asked me about this Tuesday or at 5AM yesterday my answer would have been totally different, but since recognizing that I am still growing and in the process and haven’t been feeling well, I am really enjoying this part of my life. I can see how all things will converge eventually to led to where I want to go.
Updated to add: I ended up being really sick! I had a 103 degree fever that laid me out for almost 24 hours. That explains a LOT!
‘til next time
-k
xoxo
